I started to think: why do we like to scribble? Isn’t it strange that your hand separates from your being and starts to take on an independent life of its own? Actually, you draw when you want to explain something very quickly. When you start to talk and draw at the same time you feel that people understand you better. As soon as you start to stammer you can get out your pencil and your hand takes over from your words. Or supplements them. I’m not an expert on the operations of the brain but I feel that my hand always does things a little differently than how I’d imagined, or what it should do. It’s as if the other half of my brain checks things but with a bit of delay.
The silliest doodles are always the most important. Something gets going in your head and you just want to draw it. But while you’re trying to focus on what you’re doing an uncontrollable moment can comes into being, at the end of which things start to have a free rein. Sometimes the pencil goes wild: it barely touches the paper and it’s still like a wild thing. The lines fly and it’s all beautiful. Those are the moments when there’s no real control. A drawing comes into being and the most you can feel is that your hand was flying, and maybe half a year can pass before you really understand what this could mean. Afterwards it’s moving if it turns out that this or that doodle has dramaturgy and real meaningful content, but at the moment when it was created it was uncontrollable – your hand just flies. And it turns out that those processes that felt instinctive are synchronised too. If you understand the process in time and the range of ideas linked to it, in the end the meaning of the drawings become obvious too.
Drawing is good in that it allows you to make yourself believe that what you’re doing is correct, proportional and logical.
For me drawing is a tool of recognition and acceptance, a fast-slow way of recording ideas: unplanned, fast scribbling records the moments of conception, while series that introduce tiny changes are helpful in the process of persuasion and acceptance.